Hey admins and phone, knifey here.

I'll start this by saying I have been absolutely blessed to be a part of this community. Some of the players and moments from my time in the league have done unfathomable things for my life, and my mental health (for better or worse). I have made what I hope to be lifelong friends here, and I have had moments I will cherish for the rest of my life. That being said, I would like to clear up a very dark time in my career and my life.

There really is no alternative to saying I’m sorry. I'm tired of trying to defend the side of me I wish I never had. I would like to avoid detail but substance abuse and personal problems helped me to rack up a truly astounding list of retarded things I’ve done in a very short amount of time, and although you may not believe me I truly am sorry for them all.

I am sorry for posting weird/nsfw memes which only myself found funny.
I am sorry for ignoring Lome’s warnings.
I am sorry for begging for a ban.
I am sorry for unnecessarily making star angry at the admin teams which aided in his resigning.
I am sorry for my unneeded intoxication in gathers.
I am sorry for trying to create my own meme league in order to spite you.
I am sorry for circumventing your discord role and other sneaky ban evading tactics.
I am sorry for creating/borrowing 2 smurfs to play gathers.
I am sorry for my other comments outside of the discord targeted at lome/the league.
I am sorry for using the league/gathers/and ns2 as a whole as a place to vent and act retarded.
I am sorry for the stain I have caused on this community.

I’m not sorry that I got punished (I very much so deserved it), I am truly sorry that I fell enough to cause this entire fiasco to begin with. I may have wanted it at the time, but I do not now, and neither do any of you. The league and Ns2 as a whole do not deserve this kind of fuckery and it did/does nothing to progress the community or the game. I truly do care about the future of this game and its league as I hopefully showed during my time as admin. I'm really sorry about the few months of time that have stained my career as a whole, as well as many friendships, and I can't begin to express to you how horrible I feel to have acted like that. My personal life and substance abuse is no excuse for my actions in the league and I wish to set my actions straight in the future. I ask you to give me another chance to show you who I really am and hopefully clean up the stain I left on the league.

I truly am sorry.
knifey

Knifey,

Thank you for your post.

I will be removing your Discord & Gather ban today and putting you on probation until November 25. During this time you will be Contest banned and gagged on Discord. Your Contest ban means that you will not be able to participate in Season 18 as a Player, Merc, Caster, Ref, or otherwise. You will, however, be able to play Gathers and use voice chat on Discord.

So long as there are no incidents or problems moving forward I will completely remove all sanctions against you when your probation period ends.

Best wishes and welcome back.